I always associated the term “senioritis” with being a high school senior who didn’t want to do work because all they wanted to do was graduate and go to college. They were simply ready to start a new chapter of your life and getting through that last stretch of senior year was agonizing.
Now, what I didn’t associate “senioritis” with was being a senior in college.
I didn’t think that an adult could allow themselves to feel just as lazy as their high school senior-self did.
Yet, here I am.
Here I am, procrastinating doing my work, not wanting to go to class, having difficulty focusing, and wanting nothing more than to walk across that stage and get my degree and starting my post-graduate career.
However, the senioritis I felt being the 18-year-old graduating high school vs the 22-year-old graduating college is that now I have a lot more at stake.
This time things are much more real.
My decisions hold so much more weight than they ever have, which sucks, but I guess this is what adulting is, which also sucks.
But in the midst of all things that suck, and how even though I’m feeling the laziest I have ever felt in my either life, I know I won’t give up.
I didn’t give up and then I most definitely won’t now.
For the same reason that I have way too much to lose and knowing that in completing this last stretch I will be accomplishing something that not many people in my family have done; which is to actually go to and finish college.
And yes, this is a lot of pressure, but I try not to think about it because even though many people in my family have not finished college, many have gone on to be successful in their own right. So, my success won’t be measured on the degree I get, but rather in the whole accomplishment of graduating college.
So, I know I have to keep pushing and even in those moments when I don’t want to go to class, or don’t want to do my work, and would much rather get a drink with my friends, I have to finish.
I just wish that during this tough time, where it is taking ever ounce of my being to do anything, which includes writing this; I wish I had someone else to tell me that college senioritis was a thing!
Because I really didn’t think it was!
Now, would it have made a difference in whether I had known about it before or not?
Probably not, but it would have taken away that initial guilt.
So, to the rest of the Class of 2019, if you are feeling like you are ready to throw in the towel; that you are over doing anything and everything work related, just think about why you came to college.
Think about that high school senior you once were. The one that was so eager to start the next chapter of their life. Now, think about how far you’ve come and where you are going once it is all said and done.
Senioritis is as real as it has ever been, and though it’s hard to deal with, it also just shows that you are ready to turn the page and start a new part of your life.